20061227

rising sun

I am (wo)man, hear me roar
In numbers too big to ignore
And I know too much to go back an' pretend
'cause I've heard it all before
And I've been down there on the floor
No one's ever gonna keep me down again

Oh yes I am wise
But it's wisdom born of pain
Yes, I've paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to, I can do anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman

You can bend but never break me
'cause it only serves to make me
More determined to achieve my final goal
And I come back even stronger
Not a novice any longer
'cause you've deepened the conviction in my soul

I am (wo)man watch me grow
See me standing toe to toe
As I spread my lovin' arms across the land
But I'm still an embryo
With a long long way to go
Until I make my brother understand

Oh yes I am wise
But it's wisdom born of pain
Yes, I've paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to I can face anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am (wo)man
Oh, I am (wo)man
I am invincible
I am strong

I am (wo)man
I am invincible
I am strong
I am (wo)man

hope, never lose it

Many nights we've prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood

Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we knew we could
(Oh yes)

There can be miracles, when you believe
Though hope is frail, its hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe
(Oh yeah)

In this time of fear
When prayers so often prove in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away

Yet now I'm standing here
My heart's so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles, when you believe
(When you believe)
Though hope is frail, its hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
(You can achieve)
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe

They don't always happen when you ask
And its easy to give in to your fears
(Oh)
But when you’re blinded by your pain
Can't see your way straight through the rain
A small but still, resilient voice
Says love is very near
(Yeah)

There can be miracles
(Miracles)
When you believe
(Lord when you believe… )
Though hope is frail
(Though hope is frail)
Its hard to kill
(It's hard to kill… )
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
(You can achieve)
When you believe
Somehow you will
(Somehow, somehow, somehow)
Somehow you will
(Now I know)
You will when you believe

You will when you
You will when you
Believe
Just believe
Just believe
You will when you believe

20061222

an offering of flowers : for ajna, for vince and for me

Starry
starry night
paint your palette blue and grey

look out on a summer's day
with eyes that know the
darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills
sketch the trees and the daffodils

catch the breeze and the winter chills

on the snowy linen land.
And now I understand what you tried to say to me

how you suffered for your sanity
how you tried to set them free.
They would not listen
they did not know how

perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry
starry night
flaming flowers that brightly blaze

swirling clouds in violet haze reflect in
Vincent's eyes of China blue.
Colors changing hue
morning fields of amber grain

weathered faces lined in pain
are soothed beneath the artist's
loving hand.
And now I understand what you tried to say to me

how you suffered for your sanity
how you tried to set them free.
perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you
but still your love was true

and when no hope was left in sight on that starry
starry night.
You took your life
as lovers often do;
But I could have told you
Vincent
this world was never
meant for one
as beautiful as you.

Starry
starry night
portraits hung in empty halls

frameless heads on nameless walls
with eyes
that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the stranger that you've met

the ragged men in ragged clothes

the silver thorn of bloody rose
lie crushed and broken
on the virgin snow.
And now I think I know what you tried to say to me

how you suffered for your sanity

how you tried to set them free.
They would not listen
they're not
listenin still

perhaps they never will.

and you are

You´re Beautiful Lyrics

My life is
brilliant.

My life is brilliant
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yes, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her
again, But we shared a moment that will last 'till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in
a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.


You're beautiful. You're
beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she
thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to
face the truth,

I will never be with you.

20061221

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.

I think I can make it now, the pain is gone
All of the bad feelings have disappeared
Here is the rainbow I’ve been prayin for?
It’s gonna be a bright, bright
Sun-Shiny day.

Look all around, there’s nothin?but blue skies
Look straight ahead, nothin?but blue skies

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright, bright
Sun-Shiny day.

constant

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can

You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why.

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same.

You're gone from here
Soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
'cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right.

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same.

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same.


Everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same.

ode to the past, the present and to the future

i've been spending some time
thinking i'd be alright,
don't know if I could really make it tonight,
lie awake in the dark,
come down then I start,
thinking about you is almost breaking my heart.
I don't know where I went wrong, or what's going on,
baby, I fell like our love's lost tonight
should I stay, should I go?
well, I really don't know.
lately I've been missing you so.

Baby, you don't understand our love lies lost
but you're still holding my hand.
Oh and then you walk away,
just tonight, I want you to stay.

You're turning me on,
you turn me around,
you turn me whole world upside down.

Everytime I hurt you, well it's hurting me too.
Don't know if I could really stay here tonight.
Tired of thinking of you,
I never think that you do,
tell me what am I supposed to do.
Well, I just wanted to say that I need you today.
Tell me it's all gonna work out alright.
I don't know where I should I start,
but with all of my heart,
baby let me be your lover tonight

you never played me this song but we always heard it together

20061217

myopic optimist?

it was your kiss
it was your lips on my skin
so real, i could swear it was your voice
you whispered softly to me so perfectly so very clear

i know you didn't know it
i know i'm such a fool
you weren't even there
but i was with you

visions of you dancin through me
round, round, round

visions of you
do you see what i do?

i'm dreamin of wishes
i'm wishin on dreams
living with visions of you

triumph

Here is one Triumph song: What do you think?

Triumph - Fight The Good Fight

The days grow shorter and the nights are getting long
Feels like we're running out of time
Every day it seems much harder tellin' right from wrong
You got to read between the lines

Don't get discouraged, don't be afraid, we can
Make it through another day
Make it worth the price we pay

The Good Book says it's better to give than to receive
I do my best to do my part
Nothin' in my pockets I got nothin' up my sleeve
I keep my magic in my heart

Keep up your spirit, keep up your faith, baby
I am counting on you
You know what you've got to do

Fight the good fight every moment
Every minute every day
Fight the good fight every moment
It's your only way

All your life you've been waiting for your chance
Where you'll fit into the plan
But you're the master of your own destiny
So give and take the best that you can

You think a little more money will buy your soul some
rest
You'd better think of something else instead
You're so afraid of being honest with yourself
You'd better take a look inside your head

Nothing is easy, nothing good is free
But I can tell you where to start
Take a look inside your heart
There's an answer in your heart

Fight the good fight every moment
Every minute every day
Fight the good fight every moment
Make it worth the price we pay

Every moment of your lifetime
Every minute every day
Fight the good fight every moment
Make it worth the price we pay

thanks tom!

20061206

(happy)Exp2

One day, you came to me
Freed me from misery
I touched the music in you
You started to feel so happy
Makes me jump up and down
You know my heart gets a beat
Each time that we meet
I am so happy I met you

Happy
I am feeling so happy
I'm gonna go happy
You make me so happy
Can't you see I'm happy now

One day, you said to me
Happy is where I wanna be
One plus one makes it two
That equals me and you
Each time we make love
Until the day I met you
All of my dreams came true
I am so happy I met you

Happy
I'm feeling so happy
I'm gonna go happy
I'm gonna be happy
Can't you see I'm happy now

I know I want to be happy one day with you
Now I want to be happy with you my baby
My baby, my baby...

Happy
I'm gonna be happy
I'm gonna be happy
Can't you see I'm happy now
sponge bob square head

20061110

i don't understand it either. i just do

Yeah, I want to travel south this year
Won't prevent safe passage here

Why you act crazy
Not an act maybe
So close a lady
Shifty eyes shady

Yeah, hey yeah
tears that soak
A callous heart

Why you act frightened
I am enlightened
Your weakness builds me
So someday you'll see

I stay away

Why you act crazy
Not an act maybe
So close a lady
Shifty eyes shady

I stay away

alice in chains

20061106

loving: a masterpiece in progress

for abaddon

have you ever wondered how loving someone can actually cause other people pain? even if loving that someone else just actually means loving yourself more than the other person. come to think of it, loving yourself more or too much for that matter just simply means that, well, you're too engrossed with yourself. common enough and to state it frankly, quite a worthwhile endeavor but only up to a point. so when and where is too much marked in self-love calibration?


loving someone causes pain. to others. yes, maybe your/our life is a little bit more complicated than other peoples', yet, does that actually mean that you/we have all the right to trample on others feelings just because they ain't yours/ours? of course not, but hey once in a while we have to admit we do drag some unsuspecting victim into our entangled lives and when those people realize that they have been ensnared it's too late. for both of you/ both of us. one is asking for pardon and the other is asking for redemption.


it's much too common for people who walk side by side and who talk to each other everyday to think that they are invulnerable from each others' destructive forces however mild those forces seem to be. from personal experiences, I can say that this is a fatal flaw in our nature as children of the storm... to think not of the reeds swaying in their midsection. we are weak my brothers and sisters and we all fall down. eventually. and we fall hard. unexpextedly. lonely. empty. hearts aching. not been prepared for the gentle breeze nor the lonely soft whispers in our empty fields.


most times, we hope against all hope that dying passion can somehow be enticed and if need be coerced into renewed blaze. haha. if that has been accepted as probable however impossible, well, hope's are again set upon a last great flicker of light in the twilight of one’s romance - on something so momentous that perhaps it will stop the end of its own end, likened maybe to the last breath of a star; a super nova. let's not tell tall tales to ourselves to convince our hearts that a big shebang is to be romanticized and immortalized as a feat worthy of being in the category of those that are meronyms of the word hope. the starburst that people see in the, erh... farewell sex might just be a result the fantastic pressure endured while one's neck is bent betwixt a three tiered pillow support and the shaggy carpet covered floor. it's just another cosmic joke, just sky rockets in flight spurting inside whichever orifice the rockets were launched. kaboom. and yet again from my point i wander. okay, pain, in this kind of parting it can be really, really painful. physically, mentally, emotionally, especially if only one of the cojoined erstwhile couple saw the starburst and only one of the two was able make the rocket take flight. one gets whacked in the heart by the stealing of that hopeful delusion and the other gets whacked in the face. see. painful! blech.


1) contruction delayed indefinitely. or this might be it. incoherent. walang saysay. bitin.

2)and yes that, i have to confess, was just a deceptive title. to lure. to entice.
WHACK!

3)knowing but unsuspecting. i am abaddon.

4)for the three quarts of juice in my three month long parting of ways with the first cat sent into space. together with the cat then was my very well space-traveled mouse.

5)this is just a work of fiction. really. this is not my own confession after all, just the typewriter's

6)owed confession: I got lost thread of what I was writing. A lot of times. Trains of thought oh well.

20061031

IRIS: goddess of the rainbow

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am


IRIS

Goo Goo Dolls

i just want you to know who i am

20061028

save
save me from this
wandered around the town
all the thousand things
i might miss

and you
think we'll suffer much
think we'll close our eyes
just to see the light
pass us by

with tomorrow coming
hope that i don't
let you down again
said im so glad to be here
does it mean a thing
if only i could breathe what you breathe
if only i could see what you see

sit
we'll take our time
watching the flowers grow
all the friends we've known say
goodbye

and you
did you suffer much
did you close your eyes
just to see the night
rush on by

gathered all around you
hope that we don't
let you down again
i said im so glad to be here
does it mean a thing
if only i could breathe what you breathe
if only i could see what you see

said im so glad to be here
does it mean a thing
does it mean a thing

yeah I'm so glad to be here
does it mean anything

if only i could breathe what you breathe
if only i could see what you see
if only i could just believe a thing


breathe
moist

20061019

loving you

breaking and unbreaking of my silence


the mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation - maybe the desperation can't be quiet anymore.




still with some missing parts

20060919

nada, nada:

staying home alone on a Friday
flat on the floor looking back
on old love
or lack thereof

after all the crushes have faded
and all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it

I'm tired of being alone
so hurry up and get here
so tired of being alone
so hurry up and get here

searching all my days to find you
not sure what I'm looking for
I'll know where
when I see you

until then I'll hide in my bedroom
just staying up all night just to write
a love song
for no one

I'm tired of being alone
so hurry up and get here
so tired of being alone
so hurry up and get here

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
could I have missed my chance and watched you walk away

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
could I have missed my chance and watched you walk away

I'm tired of being alone
so hurry up and get here
so tired of being alone
so hurry up and get here

you'll be so good
you'll be so good for me
I know you'll be so good
for me
for me

john mayer
a love song for no one

get here quick


20060918

a breath of wind

Can I get your hand to write on
Just a piece of lead to bite on
But enough to fly my kite on
Do you want to flash a light on
Take a look its on display - for you
Coming down no not today

Did you meet your fortune teller
Get it off with no propellor
Do it up it's on with Stella
What a way to finally smell her
Pick it up but not to strong - for you
Take a piece and pass it on

Fly away on my Zephyr
I feel it more than ever
And in this perfect weather
We'll find a place together

Fly on my wing

Rebel and a liberator
Find a way to be a skater
Rev it up to levitate her
Super friendly aviator
Take a look its on display - for you
Coming down no not today

Fly away on my Zephyr
I feel it more than ever
And in this perfect weather
We'll find a place together

In the water where I center my emotion
All the world can pass me by
Fly away on my Zephyr
We'll find a place together

Whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa - do you
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa - won't you
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Fly away on my Zephyr
I feel it more than ever
And in this perfect weather
We'll find a place together

In the water where I center my emotion
All the world can pass me by
Fly away on my Zephyr
We're gonna live forever...

forever...

where does the north wind blow?
to the east?

zephyr song
the red hot chili peppers

20060915

doing time, seeing red

I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes
I see a line of cars and they're all painted black
With flowers and my love both never to come back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
Like a new born baby it just happens every day
I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door and I must have it painted black
Maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts
It's not easy facin up when your whole world is black

No more will my green sea go turn a deeper blue
I could not foresee this thing happening to you
If I look hard enough into the settin' sun
My love will laugh with me before the mornin' comes

I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes
Hmm, hmm, hmm,...
I wanna see it painted, painted black
Black as night, black as coal
I wanna see the sun blotted out from the sky
I wanna see it painted, painted, painted, painted black


rolling stones, the vines and incubus
and the The Black Dahlia Murder

reposted january 5th 0f 2007 in my here and now



Videoa added 7/11/11

Siobhan Magnus


20060818

20060813

out without a paddle - revealed

The water is wide, I can't cross over
and neither I have wings to fly
give me a boat that can carry two
and both shall row - my love and I

Now love is gentle, and love is kind
the sweetest flower when first it's new
but love grows old, and waxes cold
and fades away like morning dew

There is a ship, she sails the sea
she's loaded deep as deep can be
but not as deep as the love I'm in
I know not how I sink or swim

The water is wide, I can't cross over
and neither I have wings to fly
give me a boat that can carry two
and both shall row - my love and I
and both shall row - my love and I


-

not both were in the boat
one was aft, pushing behind
stroking for shore or moat
by limbs 'fore and hind

20060811

seeking a page in the book of your life

If I had to
I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask
Would you like that?
Would you like that?

And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
So now I'll ask
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

No

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of joe
So tell me how it should be

Try to find out what makes you tick
As I lie down
Sore and sick
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

There's a fine line between love and hate
And I don't mind
Just let me say that I like that
I like that

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Joe
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place in the diary of joe
So tell me how it should be

Desperate, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love
Die for anyone
What have I become

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Joe
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place
In the diary of Joe


diaries of jane and john doe
breaking benjamin

remembering you

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off of you...
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...

'Til I find somebody new

20060809

Somnambulist's Nocturnal Journal

In the middle of the night
I go walking in my sleep
From the mountains of faith
To the river so deep
I must be lookin' for something
Something sacred I lost
But the river is wide
And it's too hard to cross
even though I know the river is wide
I walk down every evening and stand on the shore
I try to cross to the opposite side
So I can finally find what I've been looking for

In the middle of the night
I go walking in my sleep
Through the valley of fear
To a river so deep
I've been searching for something
Taken out of my soul
Something I'd never lose
Something somebody stole

I don't know why I go walking at night
But now I'm tired and I don't want to walk anymore
I hope it doesn't take the rest of my life
Until I find what it is I've been looking for

In the middle of the night
I go walking in my sleep
Through the jungle of doubt
To the river so deep
I know I'm searching for something
Something so undefined
That it can only be seen

By the eyes of the blind
In the middle of the night

’M’not sure about a life after this
God knows I've never been a spiritual man
Baptized by the fire, I wade into the river
That is runnin' to the promised land

In the middle of the night
I go walking in my sleep
Through the desert of the truth
To the river so deep
We all end in the ocean
We all start in the streams
We're all carried along
By the river of dreams
In the middle of the night

in the middle of the night and broad daylight
in the middle of the night and at high noon
in the middle of the night and at sunset
in the middle of the bight but never ever in the light of dawn

20060808

i will. i always do

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin’ in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I’m so tired but I can’t sleep
Standin’ on the edge of something much too deep
It’s funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can’t be heard

But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I’m so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn’t let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories

20060804

goddess durga, again i have risen

You may write me down in history
With your bitter twisted lies
You may trod me down in the very dirt
And still like the dust I'll rise
Does my happiness upset you
Why are you best with gloom
Cause I laugh like I've got an oil well
Pumpin' in my living room

So you may shoot me with your words
You may cut me with your eyes
And I'll rise
I'll rise
I'll rise
Out of the shacks of history's shame
Up from a past rooted in pain
I'll rise
I'll rise
I'll rise

Now did you want to see me broken
Bowed head and lowered eyes
Shoulders fallen down like tear drops
Weakened by my soulful cries

Does my confidence upset you
Don't you take it awful hard
Cause I walk like I've got a diamond mine
Breakin up in my front yard

So you may shoot me with your words
You may cut me with your eyes
And I'll rise
I'll rise
I'll rise
Out of the shacks of history's shame
Up from a past rooted in pain
I'll rise
I'll rise
I'll rise

So you may write me down in history
With your bitter twisted lies
You may trod me down in the very dirt
And still like the dust I'll rise

Does my happiness upset you
Why are you best with gloom
Cause I laugh like I've got a goldmine
Diggin' up in my living room

Now you may shoot me with your words
You may cut me with your eyes
And I'll rise
I'll rise
I'll rise
Out of the shacks of history's shame
Up from a past rooted in pain
I'll rise
I'll rise
I'll rise


yes.
i've risen again
i've risen again

20060803

nameless angel

No one on earth could feel like this
I´m thrown and overblown with bliss
There must be an angel
Playing with my heart
I walk into an empty room
And suddenly my heart goes boom
It´s an orchestra of angels
And they are playing with my heart

Must be talking to an angel

No one on earth could feel like this
I´m thrown and overblown with bliss
There must be an angel
Playing with my heart
And when I think that I´m alone
It seems there´s more of us at home
It´s a multitude of angels
And they are playing with my heart

Must be talking to an angel

I must be hallucinating
Watching angels celebrating
Could this be reactivation?
All my senses dislocating
This must be a strange deception
By celestial intervention
Leaving me the recollection
Of your heavenly connection
I walk into an empty room

And suddenly my heart goes boom
It´s an orchestra of angels
Playing with my heart

eurythmix

hear-it-here-link.

words stolen by me

he's got something to say to the world
he wants to know if he could tie it up
So it can't move, he is feeling inspired
he said it's too cool for it's own good

he's kinda freaky
he's kinda weird
he's kinda freaky
But I don't know
I think he's a genius

If he could only just slow it up
Then he could get out really quickly
he thinks the chances are
Pretty high, pretty high, pretty high

he's kinda freaky
he's kinda weird
he's kinda freaky
But I don't know
I think he's a genius

he had that slow motion thing happen
And she wants to tell you about it
But you know, you know, you know
he does not trust you
he knows all you are is lucky

he's kinda freaky
he's kinda weird
he's kinda freaky...
But I don't know
I think he's a genius

20060802

heart of hearts

Come into these arms again
And lay your body down
Th' rhythm of this trembling heart
Is beating like a drum.
It beats for you, it bleeds for you
It knows not how it sounds.
For it is the drum of drums
It is the song of songs.

Once I had the rarest rose that
ever deigned to bloom.
Cruel winter chilled the balm,
And stole my flower too soon
O loneliness, O hopelessness
To search the ends of time,
For there is in all the world
No greater love than mine.

Love....Still falls the rain.
Be mine forever...

Let me be the only one
To keep you from the cold.
Now the floor of heav'n is laid,
Its stars of brightest glow.
They shine for you.
They shine for you.
They burn for all to see.
Come into these arms again
And set this spirit free.

bram stoker's stroker.

my words are my flowers for you
my lines a string of pearls
tissue paper flowers and glass pearls

20060730

as the sun goes through the button hole

I was down at the New Amsterdam staring at this sharksfin-haired twirl
Mr. Groans strikes up a conversation with this black-haired flamenco dancer
He dances while his lover plays guitar
He's suddenly beautiful
We all want something beautiful
I wish I was not so beautiful
So come dance this silence down through the morning
Cut it out! Show me some of them Spanish dances
Pass me a bottle, Mr. Groans
Believe in me
Help me believe in anything
I want to be someone who believes

Mr. Groans let me tell each other fairy tales
Stare at the beautiful fakemen
"He's looking at you. Ah, no, no, he's looking at me."
Smiling in the bright lights
Coming through in stereo
When everybody loves you, you can never be lonely

I like to paint myself a picture
Paint myself with blue and red and black and gray
All of the beautiful colors are very very meaningful
Grey is my favorite color
I felt so symbolic yesterday
If I knew Picasso
I would buy myself a gray gay guitar and play

Mr. Groans and me look into the future
Stare at the beautiful firemen
"He's looking at you. Uh, I don't think so. he's looking at me."
Standing in the spotlight
I bought myself a gray gay guitar
When everybody loves me, I will never be lonely
I will never be lonely
never gonna be lonely

I want to be a lion
Everybody wants to pass as cats
We all want to be big big stars,
but we got different reasons for that
Believe in me because I don't believe in anything
and I want to be someone to believe

Mr. Groans and me stumbling through the barrio
Yeah we stare at the beautiful he-men
"he's perfect for you, Man, there's got to be somebody for me."
I want to be Bob Dylan
Mr. Groans wishes he was someone just a little more funky
When everybody loves you, son, that's just about as funky as you can be

Mr. Groans and me staring at the video
When I look at the television, I want to see me staring right back at me
We all want to be big stars, but we don't know why and we don't know how
But when everybody loves me, I'm going to be just about as happy as can be
Mr. Groans and me, we're gonna be big stars..

oh bother!

20060726

another of annie's. she knows better what thing to say

NO MORE 'I LOVE YOU'S'
(Freeman/Hughes)

I used to be lunatic
from the gracious days
I used to be woebegone
and so restless nights
My aching heart would bleed
for you to see
Oh but now...
(I don't find myself bouncing home whistling
buttonhole tunes to make me cry)

No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me
No more "I love you's"
Changes are shifting outside the word

(The lover speaks about the monsters)

I used to have demons in my room at night
Desire,despair,desire,so many monsters
Oh but now...
(I don't find myself bouncing home whistling
buttonhole tunes to make me cry)

*No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me
No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me in silence
No more "I love you's"
Changes are shifting outside the word

They were being really crazy
They were on the come.
And you know what mammy?
Everybody was being really crazy. Uh huh.
The monsters are crazy.
There are monsters outsides.

Outside the word

but my heart is screaming it.
can you hear my heart's song?

something else really

You've got the cool water
When the fever runs high
And you've got the look of love
Right in your eyes
And I was in a crazy motion
Till you calmed me down
It took a little time
But you calmed me down

Some people never say the words
"I love you"
It's not their style to be so bold
Some people never say the words
"I love you"
But like a child
They're longing to be told

They've got a wall in China
It's a thousand miles long
To keep out the foreigners
They made it strong
And I've got a wall around me
That you can't even see
It took a little time
To get next to me

If something goes worng
I'm the first to admit it
The first to admit it
But the last one to know
If something goes right
Well,it's likely to lose me
It's apt to confuse me
Because it's such an unusual sight
Oh I can't get used to something so right
Something so right

Some people never say the words
"I love you"
It's not their style to be so bold
Some people never say the words
"I love you"
But like a child
I'm longing to be told

They've got a wall in China
And I've got a wall around me
It took a little time
To get next to me

and

something so right
annie lenox

20060724

Don't worry about my mess.

I can clean up after ;)

So (s)he said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it

How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love

Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love

So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love

Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love

These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no

Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love

Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love

We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love

Accidentally

I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally
Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her

Love ...I'm in love

counting crows

20060723

has it been just yesterday?

In a little while from now, if I'm not feeling any less sour I promised myself to treat myself. And visit a nearby tower, and climbing to the top, will throw myself off in an effort to make it clear to whoever what it's like when you're shattered. Left standing in the lurch, at a church. Where people 're saying,"My God that's tough, she stood him up! No point in us remaining. May as well go home." As I did on my own, alone again, naturally.

To think that only yesterday
I was cheerful
bright and gay
looking forward to, but who wouldn't do the role I was about to play?
But as if to knock me down
Reality came around and without so much as a mere touch
Cut me into little pieces
Leaving me to doubt, all about God and His mercy.
For if He really does exist why did He desert me
In my hour of need?
I truly am indeed, alone again, naturally.
It seems to me that there are more hearts broken in the world that can't be mended.
Left unattended
What do we do?
What do we do?

Now looking back over the years and what ever else that appears
I remember I cried when my father died
Never wishing to have cried the tears
And at sixty-five years old, My mother, God rest her soul, Couldn't understand, why the only man she had ever loved had been taken leaving her to start with a heart so badly broken. Despite encouragement from me no words were ever spoken and when she passed awayI cried and cried all day. Alone again, naturally. Alone again, naturally.
fuck gilbert o'sullivan
fuck vonda shepard
fuck me too, oh yeah!





again, i'll be your moon



Only tell me that you still want me here
When you wander off out there
To those hills of dust and hard winds that blow
In that dry white ocean alone
Lose out in the desert
You are lost out in the desert

But to stand with you in a ring of fire
I'll forget the days gone by
I'll protect your body and guard your soul
From mirages in your sight
Lost out in the desert
You are lost out in the desert


If your hopes scatter like the dust across your track
I'll be the moon that shines on your path
The sun may blind our eyes, I'll pray the skies above
For snow to fall on the sahara
Just a wish and I will cover your shoulders
With veils of silk and gold
When the shadows come and darken your heart
Leaving you with regrets so cold
Lost out in the desert
You are lost out in the desert


If your hopes scatter like the dust across your track
I'll be the moon that shines on your path
The sun may blind our eyes, I'll pray the skies above
For snow to fall on the sahara
If that's the only place where you can leave your doubts
I'll hold you up and be your way out
And if we burn away, I'll pray the skies above
For snow to fall on the sahara

20060721

standing up.

How can I tell you that I love you, I love you but I can't think of right words to say. I long to tell you that I'm always thinking of you. I'm always thinking of you, but my words just blow away, just blow away. It always ends up to one thing, honey and I can't think of right words to say.

Wherever I am babe, I'm always walking with you. I'm always walking with you, but I look and you're not there. Whoever I'm with, I'm always, always talking to you. I'm always talking to you, and I'm sad that you can't hear, sad that you can't hear. It always ends up to one thing, honey, when I look and you're not there.

I need to know you, need to feel my arms around you feel my arms around you, like a sea around a shore and -- each night and day I pray, in hope that I might find you, in hope that I might find you, because hearts can do no more. It always ends up to one thing honey, still I kneel upon the floor.
How can I tell you that I love you, I love you but I can't think of right words to say I long to tell you that I'm always thinking of you. I'm always thinking of you.... It always ends up to one thing honey and I can't think of right words to say.



lani hall




SOS to a light house

another

ONE


I wish I knew how it would feel to be free
I wish I could break all the chains holding me
I wish I could break all the chains still binding me
I wish I could say all the things that I should say
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear

I wish I could share
All the love that's in my heart
Remove all the bars that keep us apart
And I wish you could know how it is to be me
Then you'd see and agree that every man should be free

I wish I could be like a bird in the sky
How sweet it would be if I found I could fly
Well I'd soar to the sun and look down at the sea
And I'd sing cos I know how it feels to be free
I wish I knew how it would feel to be free
I wish I could break all the chains holding me

And I wish I could say all the things that I wanna say

Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear

Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear

Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear

One love one blood
One life you've got to do what you should
One life with each other
Sisters, brothers
One love but we're not the same

We got to carry each other
Carry each other

One

One

One

One

One...

I knew how it would feel to be free
I knew how it would feel to be free










20060719

my happy days are over



Hi! I'm Vince, I'll be your crazy person tonight.


Ha get a job?
What for?
I'm trying to think

I was good, I could talk
A mile a minute
On this caffeine buzz I was on
We were really hummin
'We would talk every day for hours
We belong to the deadbeat club
Anyway we can, we're gonna find something

We'll dance in the garden
In torn sheets in the rain


We're the deadbeat club, deadbeat club
We're the deadbeat club, deadbeat club

Going down to Allen's for
A twenty-five cent beer
And the jukebox playing real loud
"Ninety-six tears"
We're wild girls walkin' down the street
Wild girls and boys going out for a big time

Let's go crash that party down
In Normaltown tonight
Then we'll go skinny-dippin
'In the moonlight

We're wild girls walkin' down the street
Wild girls and boys going out for a big time
Anyway we can
We're gonna find something

We'll dance in the garden
In torn sheets in the rain

Oh no! Here they come.
The members of the deadbeat club

from my heroes the B52's

20060717

noli me tangere


Don’t you know
that i want to be
more than just
your friend.
holding hands is
fine but i’ve got
better things on
my mind.
you know it can
happen if you’ll
only see me in a
different light. baby, when we
fin’lly get together you will see that i was right

Say you love me
you know that it could be nice
if you’ll only say you love me OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooOHolding Hands
and don’t treat me like i was ice OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooOImogen Wood
Please love me
i’ll be yours and you’ll be mine
and if you’ll only say you love me baby
things would really work out fine
If you never say goodbye to the best thing in your life. There are things you don't appreciate at all. So it's best that you don't try holding back the time. Are you ever gonna be quite satisfied? Postcard from heaven go to where you belong. Never find the perfect situation untill you know where you're from

If you ever say goodbye, no regrets, I won't ask why. And I wish you all the best luck in the world. Should you ever change your mind, holding back the sunshine.

Are you ever gonna be quite satisfied? Postcard from heaven o to where you belong never find the perfect situation. Untill you know where you're from postcard from heaven go to where you belong. Never find the perfect situation untill you know where you're from

do we really?

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you


I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face

Light up again


Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find

You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know

I'm always on your mind


Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine

Out of the back you fall in time

I somehow find

You and I collide


Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind

You finally find You and I collide
You finally find You and I collide
You finally find You and I collide



collide by howie day

20060713

for my here and now

reality is a matter of perspective
what feels most real is real
and some realities vary only in degree
i don't want to live in dreams
but i can only truly be with you in dreams
i can really have you only in dreams
and
they can come true

Dreams can come true
Look at me babe if I'm with you

You know you gotta have hope
You know you've got to be strong

Move a step closer
You know that I want you I can tell by your eyes
That you want me too
Just a question of time I knew we'd be together
And that you'd be mine I want you here forever
Do you hear what I'm saying
Gotta say how I feel
I can't believe you're here
But I know that you're real
I know what I want
And baby it's you
I can't deny my feelings
'Cos I know they are true

I've seen you sometimes
On your own and in crowds
I knew I had to have you
My hopes didn't let me down
Now you're by my side
And I feel so good I've nothing to hide
Don't feel that i ever could
Do you hear what I'm saying
Gotta say how I feel
I can't believe you're here
But I know that you're real
I know what I want
And baby it's you
Can't deny my feelings
Because they are true
I'm not making plans for tomorrow
Let's live for tonight
I know I want you baby
So hold me so tight
Put your arms around me
You make me feel so safe
Then you whisper in my ear
That you're here to stay

for the day when you start believing in me

for you because you gave me this song
for you for you made me hear it inside my head

kasi sabi ni jason libre ang mangarap

Made a wish, I can dream
I can be what I want to be

Not afraid to live life
And fulfil my fantasies
I learnt a lot of tricks to help me live my life
You helped me find my paradise

When you came, you were like
Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel
I'm on top of the world
Telling me I'll go far

Reaching out, for new heights
You inspired me to try
Felt the magic inside
And I felt that I could fly
I'm looking at the world in an optimistic light
You made me appreciate my life
'Cos when you came you were like
Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel like
I'm on top of the world
Telling me I'll go far

You are the calm
I am the storm
You are the breeze that carries me on
When I set adrift
You anchor me
You're there for me

Sunshine

That's what you are
My shining star

Sunshine

Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far
Sunshine through my window
That's what you are

My shining star(Sunshine)

Making me feel I'm on top of the world

Telling me that I'll go far

Sunshine through my window
That's what you are

My shining star

Sunshine

Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far

Sunshine
My star, my star..


will you ever sing this for me?

dianne,

mahal na mahal kita

kuya vince

to: you for my here and now

20060707

Unwritten Law's

Looking into your eyes
I see all I want to be

And I don't want it to end
If I could only put to words the way
I see you

I only know
I had an angel with me now
And when I fall asleep
You're the one that I see
You're in my thoughts and all of my prayers

I wish I could mean all that you mean to me

My angel without wings
My angel

I wish you could see all that you mean to me
But I can never find the words to tell you
And when I fall asleep
You're all that I see
You're in my thoughts and all of my prayers
I wish I could mean all that you mean to me
And when I fall asleep
You're all that I see
You're in my thoughts and all of my prayers
I wish I could mean all that you mean to me ]

My angel without wings

20060706

sleep now and i'll be your moon

Lay down your sweet and weary head. Night is falling You have come to journey’s end. Sleep now and dream of the ones who came before. They are calling, from across the distant shore


Why do you weep? What are these tears upon your face?
Soon you will see all of your fears will pass away
Safe in my arms, you’re only sleeping


What can you see, on the horizon?

Why do the white gulls call?

Across the sea, a pale moon rises
The ships have come, to carry you home
And all will turn, to silver glass

A light on the water
All souls pass


Hope fades ... into the world of nightOOOOOOOOOOOOo(day)
Through shadows falling
Out of memory and time


Don’t sayOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWe have come now to the end
White shores are calling

You and I will meet again.

And you’ll be here in my armsOOOOOOOOOOOOJust sleeping

What can you see, on the horizon?
Why do the white gulls call?

Across the sea, a pale moon rises
The ships have come, to carry you home
And all will turn, to silver glass
A light on the water
Grey ships pass
Into the West

growth

Look at the stars, Look how they shine for you, And everything you do, Yeah, they were all yellow. I came along, I wrote a song for you, And all the things you do, And it was called yellow. So then I took my turn, Oh what a thing to have done, And it was all yellow. Your skin Oh yeah, your skin and bones, Turn into something beautiful, You know, you know I love you so, You know I love you so. I swam across, I jumped across for you, Oh what a thing to do. Cos you were all yellow, I drew a line, I drew a line for you, Oh what a thing to do, And it was all yellow. Your skin, Oh yeah your skin and bones, Turn into something beautiful, And you know for you, Id bleed myself dry for you, Id bleed myself dry. Its true, look how they shine for you, Look how they shine for you, Look how they shine for, Look how they shine for you, Look how they shine for you, Look how they shine. Look at the stars,Look how they shine for you, And all the things that you do.
hope for the flowers
hi stripe!
hi yellow
what's it like up there?
come and see.

20060703

of deceptive titles and stolen lines

a crazed bitch and a crazed dude, or were they?


you're right. i have no term for this kind of thing. hehehe i thought i was reading the song lyrics of annie lennox's Into the West... If only i can have my words back, my prose and my life, then i will be complete. but this job just sucks you and drains you of your being, of your brain and of your life...

(make that a crazed love and a deluded dude deluded no more)

but you have been complete
completely imperfect
yet, perfectly complete.

your unspoken words had been heard
for your unwritten words have been read

of your life, you, now, made into words flow
your words, you, now, made for you to live

20060702

assent to a silent consent:

into one's being:

let me hear your words
as you would speak to him
to your thoughts
as you think of him

let me have a glimpse of your life as you live for him
let me have a glimpse of
who you really are

let me listen to your heart as it beats for him

let me listen as i live my life
in silence


unto another's:

let me listen as it silently beats
let me listen and let me live, again, my life
in silence

in silence, let me listen
listen, to the other murmured and hushed thundering of your
unsilent heart's caged muted beats

20060628

answers to questions for my brother carlo

Mainly, prudence is the conscious decision to choose what is right over what one may see as possibly and inconveniently wrong. Although we may have very distinct and universal sense of right and wrong, values differ from country to country and even from one region to another in just one country so, sometimes, certain values do affect our sense of prudence.

For example, in our culture in the Philippines it is acceptable or even necessary to point out a piece of crumb or a smeared sauce on our friend's pretty face or even on the chin of someone we've just met. In certain parts of Europe, however, it is exactly the opposite that is expected of us. People are just not allowed to put someone in an embarrassing position by pointing out that there is something wrong with a person’s eating accident or eating habit. Pointing out that one is a pig is distasteful to some. Hence, you must not point out the remnants of food clinging near one’s mouth - In Europe. You just silently wish the other person the luck of being able to find out for himself in front of a mirror. Prudence, in this case is variable according to the accepted behavior in any particular location. So, knowing now what is ‘right’, one will point out the crumbs to one’s friend in the Philippines while ignoring the limp noodle hanging at the corner of the mouth of your friend from Belgium, even if you guys happen to be in Greenbelt3.

In our local society, we are just maturing in terms of social graces and in being conscious of other people’s welfare. For instance people still don’t follow the keep to the right right of way when walking along corridors, school hallways, or mall aisles. A few people observe the rule of thumb that people inside the elevator or the train should all be let out first before we squeeze in front of everybody else, unless there is actually a queue. Barkers have eliminated this kind of nuisance in jeepney lines benefitting us Filipinos and jeepney riders - for a minor profit of course.

Inside the cinemas, people still leave their cellphones non-silent and worse they even make or receive calls and have conversations with everybody else hearing the non-sense monologue instead of the killer lines in the film . Some prudent people have learned not to do this even without any animated or animatronic characters in the screen telling them to put their phone in the off position.


The best guides in prudence are the oldest ones:

1) Do UNTO OTHERS only what you WANT to be done UNTO YOU.
Or the DO NOT DO UNTO others version.

2) When in doubt, DON’T!

3) The THOU SHALL NOTs keep peace in the land and also keep one out of jail.

In practice, there are truths I [we should] live by:

1) Always use condoms – something that Trust is promoting to our YOUTH.

2) I don’t sleep with other people’s boyfriends.
I just steal them away first to ease my conscience.

3) I never tell a lie when I know I will be found out.

4) Don’t ask people probing or probably embarrassing questions
the answers just might not be that interesting afterall


Life is never complicated if we leave others alone. Right and wrong varies in every location so keep to the right. Simple.